Not her mother

I had to take me mother to a doctor's appointment the other day at 8 o'clock in the morning since her appointment was at 8:30. . She tells me to park in the garage and we will just take the elevator to building B. Well, that I guess, is impossible to do without an escort from a hospital volunteer since the doctor offices are spread out everywhere. Once the elevator door finally opens after 5 minutesof waiting , the volunteer was actually getting pissed too..we are on our way.

We take the elevator to the emergency room, then walk thru the narrow hallways passed the ambulance bays, passed the check in desk and almost out the exit doors. But wait we make a sharp right to this hidden elevator, different than the first set, and take the elevator to the floor B. I am just making chit chat talk with him in the elevator of how we never would find this and maybe we just might have to page him to get us back to the car in the garage when the doors open and I take 3 steps out and I hear...

" I knew that was ( insert first and last name) as soon as the doors of the elevator opened" from the nurse behind the desk.

I smile and say "HI...how have you been"... she then says " you have no idea who I am , do you?"
Me: "yup. its ( first and last name )"
her: "wow.. you look great, how have you been ?"
me: " doing good.., sorry its kinda too early for me..I am just driving my mother to her doctors appointment, I am not awake this early, sorry "

And with that, I just go sit down and let me capable mother sign herself in and pay her co-pay. I dint get up early after a crazy weekend and after 19 years since I graduated high school want to have a reunion at 8:00 am !!!!!! Call me a BITCH if you want but this is the same girl who I was close with from 7th grade till 10th when we both tried out for basketball cheerleader and she made the team and I didnt..so she dropped me like a hot potato. I would get the occasional HI from her in hallways but because she was so busy with practice and games she ignored me and wanted to only hang out with the cheerleader crowd and such.

So while waiting for my mother to be called, Mom says" i am sure she is in the back room calling her daughter telling her who walked into the office today" I look at my mother kinda strange and "WHAT??" she repeats herself two more times and finally I get what my mother is trying to say--and I start laughing so hard.

ME: " that's not her mother....that (name) who I went to school with ....NOT her MOTHER !!"
MOM: " OMG-- she looks bad...she looks as old as I do! she didnt age very well!"

and with that ..we both start laughing hysterically !!


I have not been to any of the high school reunions and I wasnt going to start now. I guess it has been too long to be friendly with people who were so mean to me. I can say Hi but i am not going to go into my whole life since I saw you last...is that wrong?

I guess after 19 years since high school ended I still look the same ( size and shape) ....that can not be said for all my classmates !!

CRAP.... how much is this going to cost me ?

I was driving home on a Sunny Saturday morning , I take the right onto Gilmore bridge right after the Museum of Science get in the left hand lane and go over the small hill and BAM . I now see the two state trooper cars on the right with a radar gun in ones hand and the other trooper walking into my lane to pull me over.

Before he could even get in my lane and motion me over I look over at the car next to me, smirk and just put on my signal to motion that I know I was caught.

As everyone else prays to the might speed trap GOD that it wasnt them ..I am now saying softly " Oh crap!" how much is this going to cost me?" with my heart racing but I am trying to be calm .
I turn the radio down and hit the button to lower the window.

State Trooper(ST): License and registration !
Me: without even saying a word..go into my purse pull out my license and reach into the glove compartment and get my registration "here"
ST: now walking to the front of my car ... walks past me to go look at the back of my car all the time looking at my license .. he walks back to my window "oh, so you are one of the lucky ones with one license plate"
Me: "I guess"
ST: "Is there anything wrong with this license?"
Me: "no"
ST: " so, there is nothing wrong with this license?"
me: "no"
ST: "nothing wrong with this license ?? " ...as he keeps looking at me and then back at the license
Me: " well , I don't like the picture of me!!"
ST: laughs and smirks.." no I meant, any outstanding warrants, parking tickets, speeding tickets?'
Me: "NOPE... you are MY FIRST !!"
ST: smiles and smirks again at me
ST: "do you drive over this bridge often?"
Me: "yes..well not every day..when I have to head into Boston maybe every weekend or so"
ST: "do you know the speed limit on this bridge?"
Me: " no, not really !"
ST: " OK, I will be right back .. stay here"

he now goes back to the trooper car as every person riding by is giving me weird looks just like I usually do as I ride by people who are pulled over especially if there is two state cars ... must be something big !!

I now shut off my car and throw the keys on my dashboard and shut off the radio( it was only turned down before) and am now freaking out on how much my ticket is going to be? How fast was I going? what is the speed limit? How am I going to pay for this?

I am looking out the rear view mirror and he is still in his car talking to the other trooper outside the car. After what seemed like forever but really only 2 minutes he walks back to my drivers side window with the radar gun in his hand.

ST: "Where are you headed?"
Me: " home ".....as I point over the bridge
ST: " no..where are you going now?" like I dont understand what he said the first time
Me: "HOME ?!"
....It now comes to to my brain that he thinks I am coming home from a late night partying or booty call at 10:00 am on a Saturday morning.
Me: " oh, I have been at the skating rink since 7:00 this morning "..point toward the river where the rink is
ST: " well you look nice then !!"
..thinking to myself OK thanks for the compliment but how much is this ticket going to be?( FYI I have on a black tank top and jeans--and no my boobs were not showing!)
ST: "OK (insert name), drive slow on your way home this morning "..as he hands me back my license and registration
Me: ..... thinking am I getting a warning instead of a ticket? "OK"
ST: "by the way you were doing 42 in a 30!"
Me: " REALLY?!!"
ST: " Yup, the speed limit is 30 miles an hour"
ME: " REALLY!!".... thinking to myself .." you learn something new everyday!!!"
ST: " OK..( with another smile) have a good day"

I GOT NO TICKET AND NO WARNING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really wasn't being rude to the State Trooper ..I just couldn't image that this road would be 30 MPH when small side streets in town are 35 MPH with houses on either side but this road is 30MPH and no its not a bridge over water or anything it more like a connector road between two small highways in Boston.

Well, Now I am no longer a State Trooper Virgin !! I have hit a Boston Cop before but that was almost 10 years ago ... hey, you try to feel me up in a crowd and I will call you out!!!!

"Always looked your best , no matter the time "

"I am trying"

I really am... I am trying to let go of everything that I have no control over. I have no control over what my sister's do with their kids so why do I bother getting upset over it ...it will not change !!!!!

I am one of those people who when things get to me..I eat .

In high school I think I gained over 15 pounds in those 4 years because I was so shy and introverted that instead of dealing with it ..I ate . Most people in high school and college thought I was just a straight up Bitch ..becasue I was painfully shy around people except for a small group of people but in that circle I was so outgoing and the life of the party. It didnt help that the small group of people was the popular crowd so when I would just be shy and stand off to the corner...I was the biggest stuck up bitch . Somehow this stuck with me for over 20 years ..and I want to change.

I am still shy around people, I always think they will not like me . BUT I fake that extrovert person deep inside and just try to get over it .

I think my ideal job would have been doing PR or marketing I love the idea of helping people out with a charity but I could never put myself in the front of all those people .

Today , I am trying to be myself , the one that a select few really do get to see !!!!

Olympics 2008

Can I just say ..how are they staying up ?!

OMG !!!!!!!!

there has to be some major butt crack for those people behind him ? !!!!!!

Feeling not that great...

For the last couple of weeks I have feeling a little down on myself. Maybe its because I dont have tons of plans this summer. It could be because I have been spending $$ on tons of gas for my car or it could be that I dont have a boyfriend to do fun things with. Both my sisters are married have kids and most of my friends have boyfriends or husbands to entertain their summer days/ nights and weekends. I hate calling their houses and having to explain why I am calling...can't a girl just call " Just because??!!"

Well, yesterday I ran into my Aunt in the grocery store and lets just say ..."if you are ever feeling down--- find my Aunt" She just made my day...she always has the nicest things to say. She has that Irish broagh that it doesnt matter what she says..it always comes out beautiful. She is the closest thing to a grandparent to me... (she married my grandfather's brother on my father's side )

(that's me -in the green )

It's not that I think you need a guy in your life to find happiness, its just that whenever those invitations arrive in the mail for Labor day Weekend Bash, birthday parties, wedding, or just for a quick BBQ I hate calling them back and saying it will just be me !!

I always have fun when I go ...its the getting dressed and over thinking the event I dont like. usually there is those few minutes when you look around and you feel like the only single person in a room full of couples. Otherwise, you know that there will be that other single person at the party that someone thinks will be perfect for you ...ughhhh!!!

Fall Preview 2008

Fall is coming, maybe?

You would never know that by the weather we have been having in the last few days. I have been calling it Florida weather. It is humid and it rains almost every day; if you leave the house without an umbrella ---you are screwed !!

Well I went on an Internet search to see what they predict in the magazine for fall preview 2008 ; here's what I found on just the first google page :

• jewel tones ( purple, yellow, royal blue...)
• plaid
• feminine dresses with belts
• bold accessories ( bracelets, necklaces, rings.....)
• trench coats
• western ( cowboy boots!!)
• high waisted skirts
• pointy shoes/boots

and the list goes on and on and on !

I went shopping today and I kept finding argyle twin sets everywhere--trend? What have you seen at the stores?

I have decided for Fall I will be buying brighter clothes, I need to get out of this dark, navy, black thing; If you saw my closet it looks like a funeral is happening almost everyday with the dark clothes in every size and shape . I want to go back to wearing more feminine clothes that show off my cute figure instead of hiddening and trying to just blend in. I read too many blogs where everyone ( regardless of size) wears happy, bright, look at me clothes. I want some of that attention too !!! I am not talking trashy, tight fittening clothes ---just more feminine blouses instead of turtlenecks , skirts and dresses with tights and my high black boots instead of Old navy jog sets , breaking out the big bold necklaces and bracelets instead of my diamond studs or silver hoops ..... I want to feel like a woman not a gym rat !!

2008 Olympics

its the opening ceremonies of the 2008 Olympics in Beijing , China tonight


I love the day when the Olympics open and watching how they are going to light the torch in the stadium. But more importantly...... what is USA going to wear for the opening ceremony. Its a tradition I remember doing with my Mom every 4 years when I was little .

Swimming, Gymnastics, Track and Field.... it really doesnt matter what event is on

I printed out the schedule the other night..it took 41 pages !!!!!!

Dork, I am, highlighted and set the timer on the TV for all the good events.

Lets make the popcorn , relax and Go Team USA

Hospital crazy week

Well its been another week of visiting emergency rooms and dealing with doctor appointments. This time it was for my Mom .

She hasnt been feeling all that great all summer but we had just taken it to be the weather. She doesnt do that well in the humidity and its been one of those crazy summers. Well on Friday she woke up with her foot completely swollen ( mind you this is her good foot the other one is always swollen and hurts) . So by Saturday morning she was in so much pain she agreed to let me take her to the hospital...when this happened I jumped into action since she never agrees to this.

She washed up and got dressed and we headed off to the hospital to wait our turn. She was taken within 20 minutes after I dropped her off at the ER. --of course no parking in those 10 parking spots in the ER lot... so i had to park around the corner. CRAP!!!

I told her I give it 4 hours --before we know something or are discharged..well ding ding ding. After 4 1/2 hours and blood test, xrays, and many doctors and nurses she was diagnosed with gout in her left foot.

I called my sisters when I got her home..Mom didnt want a family reunion at the hospital ; she thought she broke her foot anyways.

Now after 6 days of Oxycodone , some crappy amber shake stuff, and doctor appointments with her regular Drs she is feeling about 20% better and the swelling is going down a little.

BUT ...... my sisters are out of control now , last night one called and wanted her to babysit next Wed. night for both girls and the other sister had her daughter call Grandma to tell her she cut her hair since the cheer leading sheet said they cant have hair touch their shoulders. " Grandma is going to be so mad at you !!!" is what she told her. I guess 4 inches off one pigtail and 3 off the other. Still waiting for photos .

They havent called or helped out once since Saturday... its been all me making sure she is OK in the middle of the night, that she is eating, that she is taking her meds, that dad is ok and eating ETC.....

Even when MOM is sick they have the nerve to think everything is all about them ! It never changes does it ?