Ughhhhh!

I HATE BEING SICK !!

Help me ......

Not her mother

I had to take me mother to a doctor's appointment the other day at 8 o'clock in the morning since her appointment was at 8:30. . She tells me to park in the garage and we will just take the elevator to building B. Well, that I guess, is impossible to do without an escort from a hospital volunteer since the doctor offices are spread out everywhere. Once the elevator door finally opens after 5 minutesof waiting , the volunteer was actually getting pissed too..we are on our way.

We take the elevator to the emergency room, then walk thru the narrow hallways passed the ambulance bays, passed the check in desk and almost out the exit doors. But wait we make a sharp right to this hidden elevator, different than the first set, and take the elevator to the floor B. I am just making chit chat talk with him in the elevator of how we never would find this and maybe we just might have to page him to get us back to the car in the garage when the doors open and I take 3 steps out and I hear...

" I knew that was ( insert first and last name) as soon as the doors of the elevator opened" from the nurse behind the desk.

I smile and say "HI...how have you been"... she then says " you have no idea who I am , do you?"
Me: "yup. its ( first and last name )"
her: "wow.. you look great, how have you been ?"
me: " doing good.., sorry its kinda too early for me..I am just driving my mother to her doctors appointment, I am not awake this early, sorry "

And with that, I just go sit down and let me capable mother sign herself in and pay her co-pay. I dint get up early after a crazy weekend and after 19 years since I graduated high school want to have a reunion at 8:00 am !!!!!! Call me a BITCH if you want but this is the same girl who I was close with from 7th grade till 10th when we both tried out for basketball cheerleader and she made the team and I didnt..so she dropped me like a hot potato. I would get the occasional HI from her in hallways but because she was so busy with practice and games she ignored me and wanted to only hang out with the cheerleader crowd and such.

So while waiting for my mother to be called, Mom says" i am sure she is in the back room calling her daughter telling her who walked into the office today" I look at my mother kinda strange and "WHAT??" she repeats herself two more times and finally I get what my mother is trying to say--and I start laughing so hard.

ME: " that's not her mother....that (name) who I went to school with ....NOT her MOTHER !!"
MOM: " OMG-- she looks bad...she looks as old as I do! she didnt age very well!"

and with that ..we both start laughing hysterically !!


I have not been to any of the high school reunions and I wasnt going to start now. I guess it has been too long to be friendly with people who were so mean to me. I can say Hi but i am not going to go into my whole life since I saw you last...is that wrong?

I guess after 19 years since high school ended I still look the same ( size and shape) ....that can not be said for all my classmates !!

CRAP.... how much is this going to cost me ?

I was driving home on a Sunny Saturday morning , I take the right onto Gilmore bridge right after the Museum of Science get in the left hand lane and go over the small hill and BAM . I now see the two state trooper cars on the right with a radar gun in ones hand and the other trooper walking into my lane to pull me over.

Before he could even get in my lane and motion me over I look over at the car next to me, smirk and just put on my signal to motion that I know I was caught.

As everyone else prays to the might speed trap GOD that it wasnt them ..I am now saying softly " Oh crap!" how much is this going to cost me?" with my heart racing but I am trying to be calm .
I turn the radio down and hit the button to lower the window.

State Trooper(ST): License and registration !
Me: without even saying a word..go into my purse pull out my license and reach into the glove compartment and get my registration "here"
ST: now walking to the front of my car ... walks past me to go look at the back of my car all the time looking at my license .. he walks back to my window "oh, so you are one of the lucky ones with one license plate"
Me: "I guess"
ST: "Is there anything wrong with this license?"
Me: "no"
ST: " so, there is nothing wrong with this license?"
me: "no"
ST: "nothing wrong with this license ?? " ...as he keeps looking at me and then back at the license
Me: " well , I don't like the picture of me!!"
ST: laughs and smirks.." no I meant, any outstanding warrants, parking tickets, speeding tickets?'
Me: "NOPE... you are MY FIRST !!"
ST: smiles and smirks again at me
ST: "do you drive over this bridge often?"
Me: "yes..well not every day..when I have to head into Boston maybe every weekend or so"
ST: "do you know the speed limit on this bridge?"
Me: " no, not really !"
ST: " OK, I will be right back .. stay here"

he now goes back to the trooper car as every person riding by is giving me weird looks just like I usually do as I ride by people who are pulled over especially if there is two state cars ... must be something big !!

I now shut off my car and throw the keys on my dashboard and shut off the radio( it was only turned down before) and am now freaking out on how much my ticket is going to be? How fast was I going? what is the speed limit? How am I going to pay for this?

I am looking out the rear view mirror and he is still in his car talking to the other trooper outside the car. After what seemed like forever but really only 2 minutes he walks back to my drivers side window with the radar gun in his hand.

ST: "Where are you headed?"
Me: " home ".....as I point over the bridge
ST: " no..where are you going now?" like I dont understand what he said the first time
Me: "HOME ?!"
....It now comes to to my brain that he thinks I am coming home from a late night partying or booty call at 10:00 am on a Saturday morning.
Me: " oh, I have been at the skating rink since 7:00 this morning "..point toward the river where the rink is
ST: " well you look nice then !!"
..thinking to myself OK thanks for the compliment but how much is this ticket going to be?( FYI I have on a black tank top and jeans--and no my boobs were not showing!)
ST: "OK (insert name), drive slow on your way home this morning "..as he hands me back my license and registration
Me: ..... thinking am I getting a warning instead of a ticket? "OK"
ST: "by the way you were doing 42 in a 30!"
Me: " REALLY?!!"
ST: " Yup, the speed limit is 30 miles an hour"
ME: " REALLY!!".... thinking to myself .." you learn something new everyday!!!"
ST: " OK..( with another smile) have a good day"

I GOT NO TICKET AND NO WARNING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really wasn't being rude to the State Trooper ..I just couldn't image that this road would be 30 MPH when small side streets in town are 35 MPH with houses on either side but this road is 30MPH and no its not a bridge over water or anything it more like a connector road between two small highways in Boston.

Well, Now I am no longer a State Trooper Virgin !! I have hit a Boston Cop before but that was almost 10 years ago ... hey, you try to feel me up in a crowd and I will call you out!!!!

"Always looked your best , no matter the time "

"I am trying"

I really am... I am trying to let go of everything that I have no control over. I have no control over what my sister's do with their kids so why do I bother getting upset over it ...it will not change !!!!!

I am one of those people who when things get to me..I eat .

In high school I think I gained over 15 pounds in those 4 years because I was so shy and introverted that instead of dealing with it ..I ate . Most people in high school and college thought I was just a straight up Bitch ..becasue I was painfully shy around people except for a small group of people but in that circle I was so outgoing and the life of the party. It didnt help that the small group of people was the popular crowd so when I would just be shy and stand off to the corner...I was the biggest stuck up bitch . Somehow this stuck with me for over 20 years ..and I want to change.

I am still shy around people, I always think they will not like me . BUT I fake that extrovert person deep inside and just try to get over it .

I think my ideal job would have been doing PR or marketing I love the idea of helping people out with a charity but I could never put myself in the front of all those people .

Today , I am trying to be myself , the one that a select few really do get to see !!!!